midsummer morning

The thing about pumping at 8:00 p.m. and going to bed at 9:30 is that you wake up at 3:00 a.m., needing to pump, and then once you are done with that, when you go back to bed, you are awake enough to think about things, and you can't get back to sleep; so you get up thinking that if you read a little you will fall back asleep, but you read about breastfeeding in the preemie book, and you read about homecoming in the preemie book, and then you think about all the things you read about in the preemie book, so you really can't sleep, and now it's 5:37 a.m. anyway, so there's no point because the alarm is set for six, but you could use a bath, and once that's done, the bed is very tempting but if you lay down you will fall asleep which is no good because it's time to get up, time to pump, time to get ready to go to the hospital, time to go to work, so you make coffee--half caff this time--and think that if you can be up, surely the husband could be up, but he's sleeping with his three pillows and at least one cat, and you think it's really not fair, but there's nothing to be done about it because it's the same thing women have been thinking for ages.